I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand ..

harini aku bawak cupcke pegi opis...(actually nana yg beli)...untuk menghabiskan ajer
aku tak makan satu pon...xde deria...selsema...

kebetulan byk lagi cupcke tu..so aku baru teringat kat s.k.a.l.s aku..haihs..
so i decided to call him teros..
flirt a bit -lah...i sounded like my along's voice..then he called me 'akak'...nvmd lah..i dah biase
so i invite him to come over to de office to eat ..
im happy to see him actually..though i act like..i dont..but for sure ppl around me will notice lah..

i ask him to amek lebey lah..to be nice to him..and give to another guy..which is 0so his fwen lah..
and during he takes de cupcke..he blink2 his eyes to me..im quite shock ...
malu pon ade..y lah...
u know i like u so much aite..and please dont let it blossom..

dan disamping itu jugak..
1 one my opis mate like..nak korek sumting
i did korek sumting oso..and i heard a lot of heart-breaking stories bout him..
i juz know bout it..but i juz dont really satisfied bout thing i know..and i want to know more.and it cause me heart attack...
donno how i can telan all the stories..past, now and future bout u..

i still dont have gut to say it...
i really want u to know..that's all..
i dont want any feedback..juz wanted to tell..

Happy nampak kamu

arini keje..biasela...sabtu kan..tapi..aku bukan wat keje pon..
fb la..apo laie..twitter..keh keh keh
kebetulan...aku sgt boring..so..aku follow lah...opis mate aku ke depan..
dan...terjumpa dia..
haihsss...sweet sgt...saya suka...hehe..hepi lah dpt jumpe die
aku mmg tak dpt sembunyi la..feeling aku..

hmm..parahh

"You give me butterflies in my stomach when I catch you looking at me and smiling."

haihs...arini..lgsg tak jumpa die..windu dowh..
aku p cari gak la...kebetulan..ada parcel utk aku...haihs...tp aku terlepas...kebetulan lalu...tp..tak nampak..aku malas la nak patah balek..segan..so baek aku rileks jer..(dlm ati...aku windu la bodo)
by the way...aku dpt ckp tepon..nak cakap pasal file je sebenonye..tp..aku saje la flirting...nak create sweet conv..lame wu tak wat centu...windu gak nak keep in touch ngan die...tp aku lgsg takde peluang nak wat centu..giler windu la bodoh

*Sigh...*

anda nampak pelik

sehari 2 ni.aku nampak dia cam pelik je ngan aku..
tatau kenapa..ape yg aku salah...aku tak pasti..
tapi mungkin sbb wutever..hapen bet. me n him..aku kasitawu along...
bukan sume bende pun..yg lawak2...dats all..
tapi aku pun tatau..nak explain cena..haihs..
see wuts hapen nex
if let say i do feel like he ignores me.then..i shud back off lah kan...

ada kamu

ummm... skang ni aku dah pindah opis...kalo ikot...3-4 miggu gak la..adehs..
susah la nak jumpa dia lagi...tapi baik jugak untuk penglihatan aku..
aku ingat lagi 1-2 mgu lepas....atas sikap aku yang cemburu giler ni..makan diri..sedih
sampai owang len pun perasan...
aku harap sangat...aku leh simpan perasaan aku tu..tapi rupenye aku memang tak pandai simpan .
kate Along...senang sangat nak nampak..apakah feeling aku ..dengan hanya melihat muka aku..haihs..
tak pandai cover..apa bley buat...

harini aku last ganti puasa...letey dowh..jalan sana-sini
tapi tu semua dugaan Allah..
Alhamdulillah..aku berjaya gak posa sampai abes...

arini jumpa dia...aku ni tak adil..aku tatau apa yg aku sembunyikan...tapi kadang2 aku ok..
kadang2 ..aku cam..nak melarikan diri pun ade gak...
mungkin betol...aku tak sesuai berpasang ngan sape pun..
cepat burok sangke..haihs...

hari letih yang bahagia

arini keje kemas opis bos..(termasok kemas tempat aku gak la)...assistant aku?..along ler..

ditemani oleh sum1 giler special dalam ati aku..giler lah..i juz can't describe how hepi i am to be around him..all over..

Haihss...skang ni agak nakal jugak lah..tatawu kenape..giler menyakat aku ah..aku rase..die tawu...tp..i didnt say..or confess anything..

aku tanak ati aku parah lagi..sakit dowh..

body language yg sgt mesra...buat aku rase cam...adehhh...susah nak describe..

tp if Along ade..dieorang tak pulak..

ade another guy ni pun...bukan main lagik melawak ngan aku...tapi mungkin sbb aku tibe2 je friendly kot..so...we get along together sgt2 baik..nice lah..nice to have them as a friend..easy to talk to....

Tapi aku pasti...salah sorang..mesti perasan...aku lain macam sket..ngan salah sowang tu..

control myself as much as i can..

people do realize it..i know..

but..it juz dat...sumtimes..de hapiness shows w/out warning...so do sadness..

to be continued

episod cinta luka

baru2 ni..aku ade la bagi hint kat dier.by saying dat "..u tanak ade gg melayu ker?''
he said."..nak..nak sgt""...but de conversation end up centu jer..sbb somebody coming in ...
plan to ask him again..but i dont need to do dat ..y?...bcause...he said dat ..i ni kawan rapat die..

i juz need to tell him dat i do have a special feeling for him..till i cant deny it...im so sick of dis..
pegi keje je..aku da jeles...tak sepatotnye...
i juz cant stand seeing u been surrounded by beautiful gerls...cuz im not..

so sick of l.o.v.e

apsal aku rase sedih sgt pasal ni..
rase cam bodoh jer..omputeh kater...hard to let go dis feeling...dont know why

i never ask to have a feeling for u...im not aware of it..
it happens so sudden..till it becomes part of my life + my brain + my heart ...
im so sick...